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Come around again.

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 22:08:15 -0400

Exams, lack of ideas, and one darn boring life.

tomorrow

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 01:32:53 -0400

tomorrows plans:

first, i plan to wake up at 9:30. on the freaking DOT. and call emily matthews, a good friend of mine. then i will wearily drag myself outside to take a shower, considering i worked in a storm of sticky ice cream and fugde and carmelized fruit all night and have not yet showered. then, i will journey down grand central avenue on my bike to elizabeth ave. there, i will meet up with jake emily bruce and zach. we willl go to the beach. and then i will come home and my momma will bring me home, home. and i will then get a ride to emily’s house in beachwood. there, i will enjoy the company of many close friends and say farewell to emily who is going to the other side of the world on thursday!

let’s see if they actually happen.

"You know what’s wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You’re chicken, you’ve got no guts. You’re..."

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 01:22:38 -0400

““You know what’s wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You’re chicken, you’ve got no guts. You’re afraid to stick out your chin and say, “Okay, life’s a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that’s the only chance anybody’s got for real happiness.” You call yourself a free spirit, a “wild thing,” and you’re terrified somebody’s gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you’re already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it’s not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It’s wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself.””

- Breakfast at Tiffany’s

my candy-coated tongue

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 01:19:37 -0400

I want to be free to say stupid things and not be taken for stupid.

From my diction and inflection it will be clear that I’m being ironic even when I’m not. My sarcasm will flow through you unabated and my ignorance will not spoil the emotion. When I pronounce words incorrectly and tongue-trip incessantly, you will find it endearing without being patronising.

When I pause to think, not because I don’t know what to say, but because in the presence of others I often forget how to say it, you will realise that I’m thoughtfully articulating instead of internally gesticulating worries about how best to come off to you, so I can come on to you, in the hope of coming all over you, when I come over later.

Your suspicion of my inhibitions will be laid to rest once you’ve engendered every sense of the word confidence in me, because rather unfortunately, my confidence isn’t innate; it’s slow shy land turtles that poke their heads out only when it’s safe. With minds in full view and thoughts made of glass, our lives will switch on like gaudy crystal lighting. This shining combination will blind you to what I desperately need you (not) to see.

When I speak, jet-stream rainbows will shoot from my mouth, my candy-coated tongue will stimulate your salivary glands, and your blood-sugar levels will skyrocket.

I want you to be free to say stupid things and not be taken for stupid. Because stupid has got a bad rap through overuse. Girls are not stupid by virtue of being girls. Some are stupid by virtue of being borne. But this has fuck all to do with being girls; it has all the fuck to do with being us

"Sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world I feel like I can’t take it, like my heart’s going to..."

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 01:18:14 -0400

“Sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world I feel like I can’t take it, like my heart’s going to cave in.”

- Ricky Fitts, American Beauty (via jessicachu)

Fresh Prince on a Friday Night

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 04:06:48 -0400

Nothin’ better! although i am on my fourth cup of coffee and now i’m not going to be able to sleep.

15 Things

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 23:37:03 -0400

Fifteen things I have learned in the past fifteen years of my life:

1. Whenever possible, drink from curly straws.
2. Don’t get too comfortable.
3. Only touching something when you know where it’s been gets boring quickly.
4. Silence can be passed off as grace.
5. The cure for heartbreak is realizing that hearts don’t actually break.
6. Keep shoes off the table unless you’re tapdancing on it.
7. Trying to be sexy is oxymoronic.
8. Many unexpected things can be successfully used as a mixer for vodka.
9. However milk is not one of them.
10. Do not wait for permission.
11. Romance does not come in shades of pink and red.
12. It’s not what you do, it’s what it does to you.
13. Things do not in fact happen for a reason.
14. You don’t have to.
15. No, you really don’t.

UTTERLY <3'd

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 22:53:10 -0400

I have no idea how it feels to be utterly loved.

I am the place a person falls to when life gets hard. I am the shoulder, the keeper of secrets, the kindness through their pain. I am the wisdom, the knowledge, the prophet when everything goes wrong.

I have no idea how it feels to be utterly loved.

I’m a walking catastrophe.

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 20:23:46 -0400

I’m a walking catastrophe.

At night I dream about you.

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 19:39:03 -0400

Have you forgotten me?

Do I still give you the ebejeebies?

"Possibility Girl Everyone thinks Possibility Girl is possibly a genius. Any day now, they..."

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 19:33:00 -0400

“Possibility Girl
Everyone thinks Possibility Girl is possibly a genius. Any day now, they continually agree, Possibility Girl will make it big. Become a star. ‘You won’t forget us when you’re famous, will you?’ they always say, as Possibility Girl begins yet another amazing project. The only person, who doesn’t believe in Possibility Girl’s possible genius, is Possibility Girl herself. She thinks they’re being too kind. She isn’t gifted at all. She’s a fake genius, bluffing her way through life. She is convinced the moment she tries to actually achieve her full potential, she will fail, fall flat on her face, and the people that once admired her from afar, will admire her no more. And so Possibility Girl never actually achieves anything. She just sits on the edge of her possible glory and basks in the adulation of her potential.”

- a beautiful revolution: blog couldn’t have said it better myself.

sleeping late

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 14:06:24 -0400

is THE biggest waste of time. Biggest waste of space, of life, of air, of oppurtunity ever. I absolutely detest it. The only reason, and there’s only ONE, that I would sleep in is because I adore dreaming.

who are you people?

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 01:13:13 -0400

And why the fuck are you in my house? Miranda and Macie are here.

Mood: frustrated >:(

sandcastles

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 23:02:45 -0400

are kick ass. And they made my day.

Marche du Fleur dans Nice, France :)

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 22:56:34 -0400

Marche du Fleur dans Nice, France :)

"‘Loving someone means taking the risk that they might fuck up your nicely ordered little life.’"

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 00:54:00 -0400

“‘Loving someone means taking the risk that they might fuck up your nicely ordered little life.’”

- Mark Haddon, A Spot of Bother

Cloud Cult - Journey of the Featherless

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 00:52:00 -0400

Cloud Cult - Journey of the Featherless

Oh, but he was so convincing.

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 00:41:00 -0400

According to this, I haven’t existed for quite a while. Yes, I’ve been busy. And yes, I’ve had a lot going on. The usual excuses. But anyway, welcome back. It’s been a while, QUITE a while since I’ve been able to post one of these.

I’m at an interesting point of this journey I’d like to call my adolescence. I’m not sure how to explain the indifferent feelings I’ve been feeling. It’s so weird because my life is so deliciously good right now but it sure as HELL doesn’t reflect on my attitude or the way I treat others lately.

Where have all my friends gone? I haven’t seen them. Have you? They no longer speak to me. I go away to Europe for ten days and I come home and everyones forgot about good ol’ Cait. I mean don’t get me wrong, going to Europe was such an incredible experience. I consider myself a very, very lucky young lady. And when I find enough time to explain and share my trip with you, I will. But sheesh, Bayville is the worst place on Earth now and I used to absolutely get high off life when I spent time there. Now I’m constantly in Lavallette, which isn’t an entirely awful thing. I work, I sleep, I beach it, I eat… A LOT. And occasionally I’ll go on a little run. But it’s not very exciting.

I should be out. Getting into trouble. Getting “WASTED” or “smashed” and making, what feel like terrible and grave but always end up being, silly mistakes. I should be out untill all hours of the freaking night and sleeping untill noon. I should be enjoying my adolescence and “living life to the fullest”. Oh, if I had a nickle for the amount of times I’ve heard that silly saying. I should be doing all that stuff. Shouldn’t I? Everyone makes me feel that way. They ask me why I’m not. They ask me what I do on Friday nights. Do you wanna know my answer? I read. And I love it. Don’t I?

Dear God,

What’s it like to be depressed? Am I on the verge? Or am I just worrying too much?

As Always,

Cait ;)

justttt likkke the rest of em.

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 20:11:15 -0400

I’m just a speck along with 6,617,064,926+ people on this earth. and unless i start changing my attitude, thats all i will ever be.

happiness?

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 20:03:07 -0400

the feeling of happiness is never completely lost. one thing will always trigger even the smallest smile. as you become older, life will get harder. its a fact of development. stick to your skills, don’t waste your life dreaming. a dream is a desire, not a product. dreams are the structure for how you want to live your life and what goals you would like to achieve. the belief that you can reach your goals is set on the basis of hard work and dedication. i dare you today, to follow your dream. wake up tomorrow morning and think about how you will make that dream, that goal, that hope, into a reality. be who you are and reach for the stars. go do how you do, be who you want, live with the knowledge that “no act of kindness, no matter how small, will go unnoticed.” do all that, I’ll lift my glass, and say here’s to you.