sleeping late

is THE biggest waste of time. Biggest waste of space, of life, of air, of oppurtunity ever. I absolutely detest it. The only reason, and there’s only ONE, that I would sleep in is because I adore dreaming.

who are you people?

And why the fuck are you in my house? Miranda and Macie are here.

Mood: frustrated >:(

sandcastles

are kick ass. And they made my day.

Oh, but he was so convincing.

According to this, I haven’t existed for quite a while. Yes, I’ve been busy. And yes, I’ve had a lot going on. The usual excuses. But anyway, welcome back. It’s been a while, QUITE a while since I’ve been able to post one of these.

I’m at an interesting point of this journey I’d like to call my adolescence. I’m not sure how to explain the indifferent feelings I’ve been feeling. It’s so weird because my life is so deliciously good right now but it sure as HELL doesn’t reflect on my attitude or the way I treat others lately.

Where have all my friends gone? I haven’t seen them. Have you? They no longer speak to me. I go away to Europe for ten days and I come home and everyones forgot about good ol’ Cait. I mean don’t get me wrong, going to Europe was such an incredible experience. I consider myself a very, very lucky young lady. And when I find enough time to explain and share my trip with you, I will. But sheesh, Bayville is the worst place on Earth now and I used to absolutely get high off life when I spent time there. Now I’m constantly in Lavallette, which isn’t an entirely awful thing. I work, I sleep, I beach it, I eat… A LOT. And occasionally I’ll go on a little run. But it’s not very exciting.

I should be out. Getting into trouble. Getting “WASTED” or “smashed” and making, what feel like terrible and grave but always end up being, silly mistakes. I should be out untill all hours of the freaking night and sleeping untill noon. I should be enjoying my adolescence and “living life to the fullest”. Oh, if I had a nickle for the amount of times I’ve heard that silly saying. I should be doing all that stuff. Shouldn’t I? Everyone makes me feel that way. They ask me why I’m not. They ask me what I do on Friday nights. Do you wanna know my answer? I read. And I love it. Don’t I?

Dear God,

What’s it like to be depressed? Am I on the verge? Or am I just worrying too much?


As Always,

Cait ;)

justttt likkke the rest of em.

I’m just a speck along with 6,617,064,926+ people on this earth. and unless i start changing my attitude, thats all i will ever be.

happiness?

the feeling of happiness is never completely lost. one thing will always trigger even the smallest smile. as you become older, life will get harder. its a fact of development. stick to your skills, don’t waste your life dreaming. a dream is a desire, not a product. dreams are the structure for how you want to live your life and what goals you would like to achieve. the belief that you can reach your goals is set on the basis of hard work and dedication. i dare you today, to follow your dream. wake up tomorrow morning and think about how you will make that dream, that goal, that hope, into a reality. be who you are and reach for the stars. go do how you do, be who you want, live with the knowledge that “no act of kindness, no matter how small, will go unnoticed.” do all that, I’ll lift my glass, and say here’s to you.

Long time, no post.

I’ve been kind of busy lately. A lots been going on. Something new is happening. It’s an interesting feeling. Sort of like when you were little and you just learned how to go all the way underwater. A pleasing, and utterly refreshing and accomplishing feeling. Well, it’s like that… I just can’t figure why I’m feeling this way. I haven’t accomplished anything, really. Well, maybe I have. I just don’t know it.

I’ve just recently been told that I come off as an extremely calm, steady and down to earth person. And that’s why people tend to trust me. “You appear patient and easygoing, rarely coming across as demanding or difficult” he said.

Me:  Is that really how you see me?

Him: Well yeah, you’re so chill.

Me: That’s all? Just chill?

Him: Yeah that and so outwardly very strong-willed and energetic but I bet you’re actually full of fear and worries on the inside.  

So worry free and energeticly easygoing. No complications, just a few on the inside ;)

Oh how right he is. 

June 24th :)

10Th GLaSS record. So physched.